NPM 30 Day Challenge: Day 15

lost in the swirling void
of self-doubt, self-hate
     and self-harm
spinning further down - and down
with nothing to hold on to
     and no one to catch me
all alone in a battle against myself
in this constant inward struggle
     i cannot hope to win

© Wondra Vanian 2012

NPM 30 Day Challenge: Day 14

alone, apart, outside

last to be picked
     lonely

on the outside
     alone

no one to love
     loved by no one

ever alone, apart, outside

© Wondra Vanian 2012

NPM 30 Day Challenge: Day 7

I am a body of lies.
I am a mind of half-truths.

I am a heart of remorse.
I am a soul of regret.

I am a body of lies.
I am what you have made me.

© Wondra Vanian 2012

NPM 30 Day Challenge: Day 6

Alone

But not lonely

Alive

But not living

Afraid

And also frightened

Amazed

And also amazing

I am The Contradiction


The Country's

Best and Worst

The World's

Worst and Best

I am everything

And nothing ever

I am The Contradiction

©  Wondra Vanian 2012

NPM 30 Day Challenge: Day 5

I wear a mask.

When I am with you, I wear a mask of comfort
to boost your spirits,
to ease your pain.

When I am with her, I wear a mask of scorn
to mock the weak,
to ridicule the poor.

When I am with him, I wear a mask of mirth
to play children's games,
to laugh in the sun.

When I am alone, I wear no mask at all.
I am no one.
I am nothing.

I wear a mask.

©Wondra Vanian 2012